Friendly fire

The definition according to Wikipedia is as follows…

Friendly fire is an attack by a military  force on friendly forces

while attempting to attack the enemy,

either misidentifying the target as hostile, or due to errors or inaccuracy.

Such attacks often cause injury or death.

I have been a victim of friendly fire, but it was not an error or miscalculation. I was the target and I have no idea where she got her ammo…no idea why she discharged her weapon…and no idea why it was directed at me. Fortunately for me, she was firing blanks. BUT, the fact that she fired at all – and I was the target- has damaged a relationship beyond repair.

Last week, in my anger, I wrote a post that unleashed all of my anger (albeit in a “nice” way…I withheld most of my wrath because the Bible reminds me to not sin in my anger.) This post included a clip of Jules from Pulp Fiction and his angry narrative of the Hollywierd version of Ezekiel  25:17. I was infuriated and ready to unleash my own “vengeance and fuuuuurious anger” upon her.

Ezekiel 25:17  has less Hollywood. It reads:

I will carry out great vengeance on them and punish them in my wrath. Then they will know that I am the Lord, when I take vengeance on them.

Man, I was boiling. I sat on that post and never published it… I am so glad that has passed.

I only have a very small band of brothers/sisters behind me, because I choose to keep my circle small. In battle, you expect to be fired upon…just not from within your own outfit. With fire from the front and the rear, a girl can become disoriented and questioning…alone. Today I find myself with an even smaller circle.

Fools give full vent to their rage, but the wise bring calm in the end.

Proverbs 29:11

Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”says the Lord. On the contrary:

“If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.

In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Romans 12:17-21

We are in a battle every day. Every day, THE enemy wages war upon us and fighting can become exhausting. Especially when you just came through a string of skirmishes that have sapped your energy and stamina.  Fortunately, God is in command  and while I may be bruised and battered during battle- the ultimate war has already been won.

So I have decided that this matter is not worth addressing. She fired upon me and the “why” doesn’t matter. I have to reel this in…I have to forgive. I have to be silent. In battle, it is not wise to linger. One must advance and continue to fight the fight.

“In your anger do not sin”: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. Anyone who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with their own hands, that they may have something to share with those in need.

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Ephesians 4:25-32

This matter almost distracted me from something wonderful and exciting that God has in store for me. A new horizon, a new opportunity to serve. If I had not shifted my focus, I would have missed that blessing all together. I am so thankful that I didn’t miss it! I am restless and looking for more…seeking my purpose under God’s command and eager to follow His orders.

Today, I must refuse to let Satan get a foothold in my anger. I must refuse to let him steal the joy and the miracles God has already gifted me.  And the lies? He can keep them. There is no room for them here and I refuse to address them any further. NOW ONWARD!!!!  Or as our Pastor exclaims…”Now therefore GO!”

 

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