A sleepless night…but, this is different. It’s not insomnia. I have no heavy burdens of my own at the moment. The kids are well and I was sound asleep for the three hours prior. Why am I awake? I am still waiting for the answer to that one.
At 1:00am my eyes opened.
I prayed…I prayed for a woman who is 30 weeks pregnant and whose body is fighting/attacking her and this child in ways that perplex the doctors around her. When I prayed for her early in her pregnancy- God assured me that He had already named this child- a boy- and that His hands were on them. As God moves in this situation- the glory will all be His. I pray for her parents and husband as they shoulder a heavy emotional burden. I pray that God will hold their cares and concerns, that He will move them through the days as they care for the siblings and as they pray for the safety and health of their mother, wife and daughter…that’s their little girl.
I prayed…for my sister and her hubby and for the physical and spiritual battles that surround them. I pray that God will clear their minds of distraction this weekend while they are on retreat seeking God’s will for them this year and in the years to come.
At 1:45am I decided to get up and throw some more wood on the fire. There is still a nagging feeling that there is something. Some reason that I am awake…something I need to know…but, what?
By 2am, I had checked Facebook for any urgent needs and found that a mother of 10 is fighting cancer. So I prayed. Then, I started reading where I had left off in Psalms.
There, in Psalms 33 was a reminder. It was a reminder God had given me back in October. At a conference, as music played, I painted what came to my heart that night. Now, this reminder was placed back in my heart during the wee hours of this morning. I want to share that painting with you.
13 From heaven the Lord looks down
and sees all mankind;
14 from his dwelling place he watches
all who live on earth—
15 he who forms the hearts of all,
who considers everything they do.
He sees. He knows. He hears. He loves. He cares.
What about us?
20 We wait in hope for the Lord;
he is our help and our shield.
21 In him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in his holy name.
22 May your unfailing love be with us, Lord,
even as we put our hope in you.
I don’t know why I am awake…now at 3:42am…but, to deliver that message.
To the hurting marriage, parent with a sick child, to the mother who is holding on, to the husband who is wrestling with his health and the wife who needs reassurance, to the mom with cancer as she worries about her own future and that of her 10 kids and hubby, to the couple walking in God’s grace- as they push past the aftermath of the addiction that used to hold them captive, to the group going on a mission in another country and the group with a mission in their own neighborhood, to the family of a special needs child, to the person who just can’t seem to find a job; God looks down from heaven and sees you.
Rejoice, trust and hope.