Reflections in the rear-view


A gift…while looking in the rear view mirror. A beautiful butterfly obstructs my view. It is a perfectly placed reminder to look at the gift of today and not dwell on the past. Sure, it’s ok to look back. But, only to reflect on where God has led me…delivered me from…and to appreciate…GROWTH. I am glad that objects in the mirror appear smaller. I’d much rather focus on the present anyway.

Let’s talk numbers. I turn 40 in a few days. Hubby and I have been married for 10 years next month. My seven year old son just proclaimed his salvation in Christ to the church. And our beautiful little four year old daughter is blooming and growing by leaps and bounds daily. I feel like God has worked all things for His glory and my good…life feels “right” at this moment in time. I am not well versed on numerology, but  I felt compelled to look up the significance of all of these numbers.

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The Meaning of Numbers: The Number 40

Forty has long been universally recognized as an important number, both on account of the frequency of its occurrence, and the uniformity of its association with a period of probation, trial, and chastisement – (not judgement, like the number 9, which stands in connection with the punishment of enemies, but the chastisement of sons, and of a covenant people).

The number 40 is the product of 5 and 8, and points to the action of grace(5), leading to and ending in revival and renewal (8). This is certainly the case where Forty relates to a period of evident probation. But where it relates to enlarged dominion, or to renewed or extended rule, then it does so in virtue of its factors 4 and 10, and in harmony with their signification. There are several such periods which appear on the surface of the scriptures.

The Meaning of Numbers: The Number 10

It has been already pointed out that ten is a perfect number, and signifies the perfection of Divine order, commencing, as it does, an altogether new series of numbers. The first decade is the representative of the whole numeral system, and originates the system of calculation called “decimals,” because the whole system of numeration consists of so many tens, of which the first is a type of the whole.

Completeness of order, marking the entire round of anything, is, therefore, the ever-present signification of the number ten. It implies that nothing is wanting; that the number and order are perfect; that the whole cycle is complete.

The Meaning of Numbers: The Number 7

We come now to the great number of spiritual perfection. A number which, therefore, occupies so large a place in the works, and especially in the Word of God as being inspired by the Holy Spirit.

The Meaning of Numbers: The Number 4

Now 4 is made up of three and one (3+1=4), and it denotes His creative works. He is known by the things that are seen. Hence the written revelation commences with the words, “In the beginning God CREATED.” Creation is therefore the next thing – the fourth thing, and the number four always has reference to all that is created. It is emphatically the number of Creation; of man in his relation to the world as created; while six is the number of man in his opposition to and independence of God. It is the number of things that have a beginning, of things that are made, of material things, and matter itself. It is the number of material completeness. Hence it is the world number, and especially the “city” number.

The fourth day saw the  material creation finished (for on the fifth and sixth days it was only the furnishing and peopling of the earth with living creatures). The sun, moon, and stars completed the work, and they were to give light upon the earth which had been created, and to rule over the day and over the night (Genesis 1:14-19).

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Let’s see. If I were to take a few things from each of those numbers it might be…
40: a product of renewal and grace, a period of probation or trial. Trials bring us closer to God and who doesn’t appreciate some God-given renewal and grace? Yep, I like that.
10: the perfect number, divine order. OK…yes. After years of doing marriage our way, we are doing it His way. I am looking forward to celebrating this tenth year of marriage for many reasons- but I agree…”divine”.
7: “the great number of spiritual perfection”. Our seven year old coming to Jesus…well, need I say more? The beginning of a journey for sure.
4: “His creative works”…that she is. She has His stamp on her voice as she sings a hybrid of ‘Jesus Loves Me’ and the ‘ABC’s.’ She is seeing many things for the first time and expressing her view as life unfolds. She is true beauty, created in His image- inside and out. Thank Heaven for little girls.
As I look back over the past 40 years, I choose to do so tentatively. My new driver license picture looks like a photo negative of the one taken ten years ago as my hair has changed from dark to light. I made some awful choices and have been delivered…though not without consequence. I have also made some good choices and have been tremendously blessed to become a wife to a wonderful husband and mother to two incredible children here and two angels in Heaven. I have worked hard and am blessed to be home with my kids presently. I am SO thankful for the place where God has planted me now and I will happily bloom there.
Yes, as I turn 40 this week…I will choose to focus in on the gifts, blessings and moments God gives me NOW. I will commit to slow down, raise my kids and grow older with my hubby while enjoying each moment and not rushing through them.
And, now, I will focus on that butterfly that landed on the rearview mirror and let the past fade away.

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