If you’ve ever seen the movie ‘Sky High’ then you are familiar with the idea of “hero support”. In that movie, it was clear that some were born with powers that made them worthy of being placed in the “Super Hero” category. Then, the others with mediocre powers were cast into the “Sidekick” group. Some of them put up a fight and tried to market themselves in an effort to be moved to the Hero group and others went almost willingly- resigned to task of “hero support”. Some people are born leaders. Born to charge into the fray and take control. That’s their gift…it’s not mine. I am more of a behind-the-scenes person. I’m a “go-to” girl for sure…but not a center stage type. I am not a procrastinator, I am a work-horse, I am a “Martha” …but it seems that I may be a bit of a Moses too. I do feel that I am not serving to my full potential. I still feel like there’s something more for me; a purpose that I have not discovered yet-I am waiting for God to reveal that to me. Blooming and growing.
A few weeks ago, my dear friend and leader of the Women’s Bible Study advised me that she’d be out one upcoming Friday, but she wanted me to pray about taking the reigns that night. Now, a few weeks has passed and she has a firm date and asked once more that I pray about it. I feel strongly that God is telling me “Lead”. Yet, I resist. “But, no…not me.” He must me trying to tell someone else and I overheard it. Or maybe God wants me to find someone to lead?(sigh) No, I am pretty sure that “Lead” was meant for my ears to hear. For my heart. Uggh. Where’s Aaron when you need him?
O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.
In the third chapter of Exodus, God told Moses that it was he who would lead the Israelites out of Egypt. Moses’ first response was “Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?”. God gave Moses every reassurance that He would be with him and there would be signs and miracles by God himself to ensure their freedom. Moses continued, what if the Israelites don’t believe me or listen (3:28, 4:1)…I don’t speak well (4:10)…send someone else (4:13). Each time Moses responded with a “but…”, the Lord responded with a plan of action. Each plan of action was an act of God. There was nothing Moses had to do except be obedient, show up, and do as God said.
So as I said, maybe I have some Moses tendencies too. When the prospect came up in Bible Study a few weeks ago, I even responded out loud, “Sorry ladies, I am not as eloquent as she is…”. You can imagine the chuckle I got when I went back and read Exodus 4:10 and saw that this is what Moses said almost word-for-word. But, it also gave me a clear picture. Behaving this way when God calls me to do something doesn’t please Him. In Exodus 4:14 it actually says that “the Lord’s anger burned against Moses”. Doubting my ability is one thing. But, since I have no ability except what is God-given…I am really showing a lack of faith in God’s ability through me. OK, Yes. I heard Him say “lead”…It is clear to me that I need to follow through on this.
…But, I don’t like being in front of people!
For by the grace given me I say to everyone of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you…We have different gifts, according to the grace given to us. If a man’s gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do so cheerfully.
I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5
I can do all things through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13
Content in my circumstances- reliant on God…I can do all things. God will equip me with everything I need for the task if the task is HIS. In 1 Corinthians 2 it reminds me that God finds me and equips me…He didn’t find any of us with wisdom. All wisdom, all truth, has been revealed to each of us by the Holy Spirit. After praying and re-reading this portion of Exodus in conjunction with other truths in His Word, I am not anxious. After all, it’s all HIM, not me. He will give me opportunities to serve- but, I must let Him use me. I am just an extension of God…He works through me. Apart from the vine I can do nothing…I will bear no fruit. He reveals things daily when our eyes and hearts are open to receive Him; but what good is that gift of knowledge if we don’t share it?
Whew. The pressure is off. It’s Him, not me. His talent, I have none. His wisdom, I have none. I just have to be obedient and show up…listen to Him and respond. So you see…I AM PROUDLY classified as “hero support”! Being a “Sidekick” never looked so good.